ever feel like there is shit thats just brtinging you down. like shit you cant even see, you don't know where its coming from but you know its there. you can feel it, shit that brings your shoulders down to foot level. shit that you try to sort your way through. shit that you try to let go, you try to just push it off, but it won't budge. shit that you've ignored for a while, but it keeps fucking with you. shit that you try and place your self on level with that shit, but its........... its....................... its.......................................Bullshit. and i simply don't know WHAT, nor HOW, nor WHY!!. sometimes i just want it to overtake me whole. to just gobble me up so i don't have to put up with it. but then i think about it, and no i can't give up on it just like that... but then, i've got very little to lose. i just want it all to fall out, i want it all to end. i want to go to a high high cliff, and look out to idk, maybe the sea, for example, a cliff out in africa. and drop it. leave all that shit behind. i also want to just go someplace where i call the shots. but before i can go there i have to take all this shit down my throat, maybe my pride with that to, make that extra large please, and maybe, if i have to, lose some guano, shit that i actually like, behind... i don't really want that, matter of fact i really don't want that to happen. i just hope all goes well with my guano. although to some extent that guano goes hand in hand with my shit, i still want it. leave the shit, take the guano, i just hope the guano can make it through all that shit going down my throat. i hope my guano can bear with me. i don't know. maybe it can go to... i don't know. i don't know shit from shit anymore, i'm talking about shit, and eating shit, and guano... ha more shit. this is just a bunch of bollocks.

Sorry... for MY shit. i've dumped some shit too, i know, but i think i'm about to dump a big one... a big fuck off one... just hope all goes well.

| The Coast>